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The Beauty in Swimsuit Season

July 8, 2013
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Ahh, summertime, a big girl’s nightmare, right? The heat alone forces you to wear less clothes and the go-to cover-up the bad parts mentality is not really an option.  And then, the same heat and seasonal activities force you to be out in even skimpier attire, showing off more skin.  This can be rather daunting, uncomfortable, and frightening for some.  It could force a woman into her home until Autumn.  I, however, am not the one. I love the pool. I love water.  I love hanging with my friends. And I love whatever it will take to relieve me of being hot. Often times swimsuit season approaches so quickly that you may not have hit all your body goals despite magazine and television propaganda and you may look at yourself in the mirror or in a picture and cringe, but then you are reminded of the Beauty: the Beauty in true self-acceptance, the Beauty in you, the Beauty in different types of bathing suits to attract or detract attention to whatever, the Beauty in not giving a fuck, the Beauty in being able to change something if you don’t like it, the Beauty in swimsuit season.IMG_4164


The Beauty in Clothes Being Tight

March 31, 2013
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When I was younger, I was so insecure.  I was mean to other children because I figured I can lash out at them before they came back and called me the F word–FAT! In high school, I was the largest of the four girls in my small crew and it was painfully obvious that teenage boys did not see my body as voluptuous and thick, but again, the F word.  In college, at an all white school, the same.  In my twenties, with personal growth and acceptance and men who repeatedly explained how beautiful I was and not just in the face (as I had heard times before), I got over my insecurities. Recently, I have had slight urges to work out and get a “hot body,” but have been unmotivated because I truly love myself now.  Today, I put on an outfit and it was a bit snug…the kind of snug that requires assistance in pulling up a zipper.  Often times when a woman cannot fit into her clothing she gets discouraged and sometimes goes for the treat in the refrigerator that got her there and then you are reminded of the Beauty: the Beauty in getting an extra push, the Beauty in feeling good about yourself in spite of needed improvements on the outside, the Beauty in getting healthier, the Beauty in people who help you pull zippers up and don’t make you feel bad about it, the Beauty having two children and still looking good, the Beauty in clothes being tight.Screen Shot 2012-08-13 at 2.08.03 PM


The Beauty in Being a Thick Chick

January 28, 2013
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Too many days, as a younger person, I agonized wanting to be a smaller woman, wanting to be able to go into ANY store and just pick out something to wear and not worry about my arms, my stomach, my thighs, my hips, my breasts. I used to joke about how I wish I was more disciplined and could have been more successful starving myself, but alas, I love food too much and adopted other unhealthy habitsImage.  Often times we look in the mirror and do not like what we see or only see what we would change, but we MUST remind ourselves of the Beauty: the Beauty in being uniquely beautiful, the Beauty in curves and shape; the Beauty in men who appreciate something they can hold onto, the Beauty in signs that I have had two babies, the Beauty in self-acceptance, the Beauty in being a thick chick.